SAD

I look back and read over my previous posts. It makes me sad. I know things change no matter how much we don't want them to. It is hard to accept sometimes. Okay most times. I have a void in my life right now and I never thought I would. I know I need to fill it with positive things. But it truly hurts and I don't like it. I wish I could understand better. I just need to guard my heart more viligently I suppose. WHY?????