My first Blog

Well this is my first attempt at blogging. I always truly enjoy reading my friends so I am going to try it out! Loni's birthday is tomorrow, I can hardly believe it's been 3 years. I remember we got Mexican to try to induce labor. Then Carl and I walked around the neighborhood at midnight so my contractions wouldn't stop. They didn't and we had our little girl at 7:26 am. It was a Monday, just I was born and Meredith and Morgan. In fact my mother was born on a Monday and so was her mother! I am glad I could keep the tradition going, now I pass it on to my girls. I worry so much about my teenagers. There is so much out there to draw them in. I want to protect them so much. They will not understand this until they are mothers and that is a sad thing. If I only knew then what I know now! But I guess that's not the way of nature. Carl is hunting all the time now. I feel torn about it. It is nice to have piece and quiet but it is also lonely. I want a better marriage but doubt it can ever improve. A good friend told me she knows her husband isn't going anywhere and that is enough. I think I am going to adopt that philosophy. He is a good man and good father and provider. Is it really that important that he makes me feel special? No it's not in the grand scheme of things. I will myself to be content and happy I have a good life because I do have a good life. I have good friends now too because of the Mommy Network. I love having girl friends.